– asocial –

the group the group the group

people

i believe that with more exposure to social interactions

the group starts rounding the edges of the individual

with time a certain understanding or social contract starts taking shape and propagating

this of course, lies under the intention of those in control of culture,

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i came to this realization after i stepped an inch into a grouping of some sort

this step forward made me see how others could perceive me and also how they perceive the world

i kept telling myself they are not wrong, and i am not

it is a matter of belonging

and i shall belong to myself and step back

the problem is, i noticed this about myself, may be this is human nature or may be not, after around three years i can no longer hide myself, which has the potential to create a lot of friction or misalignment with the status quo

with age i am becoming lazy and there is no other way but to emulate the hammer, which is a pain in the arse, for both receiving ends

back to the main premise, this thought has also shed light into my one to one social entanglements, this is certainly intimate but with time it has the potential to create or influence some sort of setback

i resist this realization because i am an idealist, which is not a mature state in this human experience,

the age factor minimizes the chance of integration within the couple

each part has already solidified, formed a perceived notion built over the years, and is no longer subject to compromise, even if there is an intention to work things out,

this is a problem inherent in the concept of individualism, which I embody by definition, and which carries great potential for divergence

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i can see she had already hardened at a very young age, this is the wording she used, meaning she came to the realization, the crescendo of truth, her personal truth, thus the Truth with a capital T

the singularity is owning your own end

by your own end, the world and existence itself cease to be